I’m savoring a freshly opened bag of Munchos and a slurpee while watching Joe put a new shelf up over my desk as I write this. It’s quite an exciting night in the life of us.
I only mean that half sarcastically. The shelf is actually pretty exciting. Because the shelf means I have officially bought so many books for my independent research project that I needed a specific place for them to live. So it’s more than a shelf, really. It’s a symbol. It feels like it marks the true beginning of me dedicating myself to this project, to the future and the career that I want. For the first time in over a year I feel like I’m moving towards something again, instead of just existing.
I plan to start sharing a lot of what I’m reading and learning and theorizing soon, but for now I’m just reading most anything relevant or adjacently relevant that I can get my hands on. I’ve always wanted to be one of those people who really have just read *everything,* you know? The ones who can rattle off old mythological stories, make casual references to medieval poetry and 20th century classics alike. I accept that many of you may be rolling your eyes right this second because shit those people are obnoxious. What can I say; the heart wants what it wants. And mine wants to be irritatingly well read. And I think I’m finally on my way to making it happen.
I have to admit I’m not super pumped about having to read the Bible, but it is a decidedly vital primary text for my interests, so here we are. Do you all have any idea how difficult it is to find a Bible with print and margins large enough to annotate? Very. I’m still not entirely convinced I managed it. But it’ll have to do.
It’s hard to explain just how much more alive I’ve felt since I’ve started diving back in to my academic interests. I’d give anything to be able to go to graduate school, and I’m hoping I’ll be able to get myself there in the future, but in the mean time I at least feel like I’m doing something meaningful. For the first time I’ve started getting a really clear idea of what my specific research interests are, what I’d like to specialize in, write about, maybe even teach some day.
But until then all I have are my books and this blog. So I’m going to write about it here. I hope you’ll all find it as fascinating as I do.
p.s. I’d love to hear any guesses you have about what my research interests are based on the books on the shelf. 😉